Christmas vacation is over. The trip is over. We are home. I am back to work. A week away and all refreshed. Perspective….. Trying to regain my focus. More than that really, maybe I was never focused before. Maybe that has been part of my problem all along. I pretty much live day to day. Maybe I need to start looking ahead. Maybe I need…. a plan.
This past week, even with the whirlwind of activity, was the most time Brande and I have had a chance to spend together. It was the most time I have got to spend with the kids, with family, with friends. Oh how I have missed it so. Having time to be a dad. Having time to be a husband. Just …. having time. Above all else this holiday season, time with my family was the biggest gift of all. Even if it was just sitting on the couch, my wife at my side, with Madelyn and Zachary running around and playing, it felt good. Life has just been too hectic. By the time I usually get home, it’s time for dinner, then getting the kids ready for bed, and Brande leaving for work. There is very little time off together, much less time to spend with the kids together.
I am being pulled in far too many directions. Life gets lost in the shuffle. It has been a strange year. A hard year. I think there is a lot that can be learned from it. There needs to be time. There needs to be structure, focus, a plan. There are going to be changes, and it might be hard for me, hard for others, but in the end, I have to take back control. People will learn what they can expect from me, what I am willing/able to allow them to expect. Then, how they deal with that will be up to them.
2007 will be different on various levels. While it will still be a rebuilding year, it will be far more. Expect changes. Expect some shake ups. Expect the unexpected.
More to come later. I have things that need to get done.
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